“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
Routines and schedules are critical in our home, but thankfully Jacob and Maggie are two very resilient kiddos. For the time being Jacob and Maggie are unaware of the major changes taking place for our family. As the realization of our new (yet eerily similar) circumstances set in, J & M will have to adjust their expectations of day-to-day life.
With past life-changing situations I admittedly did not conduct myself by faith. Worry and anxiety ruled my day-to-day, but this time is different. It is different because I am relinquishing all control. Each former change that I feared was used by God as something beautiful and good for my family, and I know this time won’t be any different. I’m not naive. I completely expect to have times of hardship, self-pity and doubt; I only hope and pray that those thoughts do not consume me. I don’t believe that it was God’s intent for us (his people) to live lives of ease, for without trials we would have no need to turn to Him. On this Easter I am reminded that we each have our own cross to bear. All of the decisions that Tyler and I are faced with are deeply impacted by the possibility that we will be caring for and supporting our two children as they grow into adulthood. I never would have imagined that I would be Googling floor plans of polygamist homes or securing my doors with double cylinder locks to prevent wondering, but I accept that we are not a typical household. May my fears never keep me from making the best decision for my family.
Today I am thankful for the time spent with my little family worshiping together on Good Friday, watching Jacob and Maggie hunting Easter eggs, and the opportunity to worship again on this Resurrection Sunday.
Count It All Joy 